It would be so good to know anyone who truly understands what I am going through right now. 

I have a loving husband and a few friends who have really stayed close and I am so sincerely grateful to them for not leaving me alone through all this. What I need now too, is someone else who knows what it's like to walk this road I'm on.  There is so much to experience, learn and change and I know I'm doing fabulously against huge odds. I just wish anyone knew what it is like and totally understood my fears, my tears, my terrors and my joys in all this.

Of course, the real irony in that would be that if there was anyone else who truly understood it would not be the same anyway and perhaps I would not gain the same things from it?