Applying for a job

I recognised the other day that I have never been successful with a written job application. Every job I got some other way-by word of mouth mostly, or by fronting up and asking. Maybe I was just meant to have those jobs? Yesterday I sent in an application and afterwards was tough to say the least! I am unwell, my critical selves tried to put me and my application letter down and for some reason, I had to see a huntsman spider ambling around a carpark in the rain, so my toddler selves were freaking right out. Thankfully I remembered to feel all of the emotions, do a couple of processes and to pray. Then I physically shook it off and nurtured with some 80's songs-I slept like a baby last night and even slept IN, needless to say, except for extreme pain, I feel pretty good today xxx