Copyright© 2009 by June M Parkin, Sydney , New South Wales , Australia
*********************************************************************A PLEA
Won’t somebody help me
Will someone hear my plea
To slay my mighty dragon
Save me! Set me Free!
Quench the fires of hatred
That burn within my heart
Set me on a path to peace
Show me where to start.
Let it happen soon though
Please don’t make me wait
I need to make some headway
Before it is too late.
I hate myself already
I’ve suffered so much pain
There’s nothing left to lose now
And everything to gain.
So answer my pathetic plea
To ease my tortured soul
Show me please, how I can heal
Help me to feel whole.
I’m on a path already
I know the journey’s long
I need a little guidance
A helping hand that’s strong.
OH GOD! NO!
Today I met a side of me
I’ve never seen before.
I know now why I hurt myself
Why my mind’s at war.
I felt a little dirty
Filthy in my skin.
Fighting so many demons
I’m not sure now, I can win.
Trying to keep it simple
One problem at a time.
But everything piles on top of me
No reason and no rhyme.
I saw a little child
Scared and so alone
I felt the way I had back then
And screamed a piteous moan.
Tears of pain spilled from me
I cried till I was raw
The ache I felt inside of me
Made me want to cry even more.
I saw the evil inside of me
When I looked inside today
A flaming, monstrous demon
That I want to wash away.
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THIRROUL
Waves crashing. Blue and white.
Isn’t it a lovely sight?
Rolling in from out to sea
Hitting the sand noi-sily
I love it here, I feel alive!
It’s only a twenty minute drive
The beach at Thirroul is very pretty
Away from the crowded, busy city
The scent of the sea fills the air
The wind whips up, teasing my hair
I’ve been here with my cousin, my son and my daughter
Laughing and playing in the cold, salty water
There’s people and gulls and seaweed and more
You can see a lot along the shore
It holds a fascination for me
I really love a stormy sea
I’ve been here lots of times before
I hope to come here many more
To walk along the beach and say
It’s a wonderful, beautiful, heavenly day.
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HEART
Rutherglen is over
600kms away
But come this time tomorrow
I’ll be on my way
Each minute brings me closer
To the ultimate in joy
The sight of my lovely daughter
And my beautiful, little boy
Well he’s actually not so little
He’s quite a grown young man
Nearly fifteen, with flaming red hair
Imagine if you can
I dream about my children
Almost every night
Can’t wait to see their faces
And hold them both real tight
No-one knows my story
I don’t have friends up here
I only see my kids now
Four times though the year
I wish I could be there with them
I feel I’m going through hell
But now, I owe it to all of us
To stay here and get well.
TIRED
I have to go
It’s time for bed.
My eyes are hanging
Out of my head.
I know it’s late
I know I’m wired.
I’m well and truly
Over-tired.
I’d better go
A shower too.
I’d better go
Toodle-oo.
Nini night
Auf weidersehn.
It’s time to go
To sleep again.
Tonight I’ll dream
I often do.
A peaceful sleep
I’ll dream of you.
A nice soft pillow
Under my head.
That’s all for now
I’m going to bed.SOON
Not long now
I cannot wait
Seven days
Or is it eight?
I’ll see my kids
Hold them, kiss them
Tell them over again
How much I miss them.
They lift my heart
I feel it soar
Having them here
I want them more.
They’re beautiful kids
Sweet inside
Oh how my heart
Fills with pride.
The very thought
Of them being here
That day is soon
It’s drawing near.
Not long now
I cannot wait
Seven days
Or is it eight?
**********************************************************************AGORAPHOBIA
Hopeless in disquietude
Tremulous with fear
Anxious trepidation
The time is drawing near.
An ominous oppression
Permeates the air
Freeze with horror, stand aghast,
Shaking on the stair.
Knees knocking nervously
Heart hammering fast
Blood pounding through pressurised veins
Impending doom seems vast.
Visualising outcomes
Instinctively inching back
Starting to sweat profusely
Cursing the courage I lack.
Over as soon as it started
The panic is dying away
Agoraphobia wins again
I’ll stay inside today.
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SWEETNESS
Softly…gently…
Tenderly…your touch
I love you
Oh so very much.
Your look, your smile
Your gentle way
Your attitude
The things you say.
I feel so special
So loved and adored
When I met you
I really scored.
I close my eyes
And feel you here
Loving me
So sweet and dear.
You give me laughter
Joy and pleasure
Your love I cherish
And truly treasure.
I love you back
Deeply and strong
In your love
I can’t go wrong.
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BEING A MUM
A brilliant idea
A masterful stroke
But possible too
For us ordinary folk.
Not out of our reach
See - it’s just there
If we want it enough
If we love and care.
Share it with someone
Open your heart
Harder than you think
But a wonderful start.
It will not be easy
It can be quite tough
What you get back though
Is reward enough.
Being a parent
Is a wonderful thing
“I Love You Mum”
Can make your heart sing.
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MY EULOGY
I hope when I’m gone
I’m thought of with love,
Not with tears as I have lived
That you’ll recall me and say
I remember her well,
She had so much to give.
I hope when I’m gone
Sorrow is absent,
That nobody mourns my death.
That rather, my loved ones
Smile and laugh
Thankful, I ever drew breath.
I hope when I’m gone
I will leave behind
Memories able to lift,
Treasures of mind
That bring others peace,
An eternal, loving gift.
I hope when I’m gone
Songs and music play
While others are thinking of me,
Immortalised uniquely
With colour and fun
That’s what I want the memory to be.
********************************************************************THE STORM
Turbulently roiling
Cumulonimbus surge
A mistral lures the tempest
With an unrepenting urge.
Whipped into a frenzy
Leaves cavort around
They dance a wild pas-de-deux
Across the arid ground.
A tantalising perfume
Permeates the air
Haphazardly descending
An elemental stair.
A spontaneous eruption
Electrifies the night
Enveloped in a thunderous roar
A brilliant bolt of light.
Expelling luscious droplets
The clouds continue on
Racing through the atmosphere
Until the storm is gone.
