Love is not laziness

I was writing in my journal this morning, and telling my God that I would like some help to practice accepting the opinions of others with "thank you for helping me learn and grow", and as I wrote, I received a beautiful text message from a lovely friend. As I was responding to that message, I realised that I have been feeling ashamed of my current need to self-care for 'so long', and as I realised that shame I received the following intuition:

"Oh dear June, you have been so much and done so much and given so much in this world already and you have usually done it all so selflessly. What you have called laziness in yourself has in fact been Grace. When you were born into this world, you began giving, every moment you gave selflessly and then, in those moments when you were able to stop and be, that was Grace. God was giving you rest. You didn't forget that it was dangerous to stop, you rose above it all to the place of no danger. You rose to love so you would not attach to pain and fear and hate. Then, when you escaped, you rested before the next onslaught, and it was not lazy to be a mother to your children and put all your energy into that for six years. Your children needed you and you filled that space and their hearts with so much love. Dear June, you have put so much love into this world and always take so little for yourself. When you took that time for yourself in Campbelltown, you were not being lazy, you were giving yourself permission to be a child finally, and now, here, you're giving yourself permission to be an infant. No pressure, just love and understanding. 

What greater love could you bring to this world June? Please believe in your greatness, in your essence, you really are here to set the world ablaze with love."

I'm so glad that I have finally begun to realise just how much of the darkness in myself I draw to me on the outside. Of course I've been fearing that everybody will judge me because I judge me. Slowly, day by day, I'm learning to love me. I'm not just learning to love the things I know about and the things that are easy to love, I am learning to love every aspect of who I am and there's nothing lazy about that!!! - June Parkin