I have decided it is time to travel back to provide inspiration to my mother just before my birth this time. I don't want to spoil any surprises or avenge anything. I merely aim to write as if I am the voice of encouragement to a very young, frightened mother-to-be.
January 1969
Dear expectant mother of baby June
You don't know me and it may happen that you never do. I am a very good friend of someone you are about to care very deeply for and I'd like to share some things with you to support you through the next chapter of your life.
This baby that you're about to have is incredible! A strong, capable, intelligent and loving miracle. Please remember that this baby is not 'yours' and is simply on loan from God to you to raise. This baby has asked to be born into this world to know love - to be love, loved, loving and lovable. God has deemed you to be the perfect mother to help this baby achieve her dream. There is no expectation upon you to be anything other than who you are. You are enough.
You will not find this easy, nor will the baby. The two of you are on a long journey together and you will lead for many years as the baby grows and learns. You will learn learn much from this baby about love and you will doubt yourself, despise yourself and criticise yourself many times in the coming years. Hold fast. This baby will help to heal your pain and will, in turn, bring fresh pain too. This baby will never intentionally hurt you. The pain this baby brings will be the pain that only love can bring and that only love can heal.
You can do this and you will have guides with you always. You will not know them as guides but they will always be there and will assist in many ways as you raise this child. God loves you as you are and trusts that you are just right for this assignment so remember: love this baby in whatever way you know how. What will be will be and you cannot control any of it.
A friend xx
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